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The EM Entropy Test

itwaseasy22:

calamitas:

diemarysues:

mybelovedcheshire:

astudyinlestrade:

WARNING: FLASHING LIGHTS, BRIGHT AND CONTRASTING COLORS, LOUD NOISES.

My results: You have quite a high view of your own worth and tend to respond immediately and quite negatively to any perceived criticism. There is a distinct limit to the amount and degree of empathy that you can bring to bear in any situation, however your above average intelligence will under some circumstances allow you to modulate your incipient narcissism in order to better interact with those around you. This in fact is your only hope.

 An unsatisfying relationship is troubling you, due in all likelihood to a perceived lack of appreciation, or acknowledgement from superiors or loved ones.  Questioning this judgement has lead to a modicum of introversion. You feel that you need assistance from others to repair the situation but are afraid that too much compromise will be seen as weakness. If this situation continues, you may feel the need to break away and redefine your own individuality.

So true. Every word of it.

You feel that you are not receiving the proper amount of respect or satisfaction from life and this is causing you to become ever more irritable. Sudden anger is likely and it will often be unrelated to the matter at hand. There is a feeling that your friends and lovers should be more sympathetic to your problems, which can leave you feeling that your emotions are backing up and causing long term unhappiness.

 A sense of hopelessness is making you unreasonable and disagreeable. Fears of losing status or security are causing anxiety and stress. You have a sense of loss that you do not want to get any worse, and this is expressing itself as a negative attitude and a general unwillingness to relinquish control.


…holy shit.

You do not realize how uncertain you really are about your place in society and the status of your personal relationships. This unconscious uncertainty will lead you to avoid conflict and stress even when such behavior can be damaging to your own self interests. There is a feeling that the problems of life must simply be endured.

 You will often assume an attitude of superiority or disdain. This masks a strong sense of inferiority and a need to be loved or respected. The desire that you have for social respect has led you to behave as if you were completely self-reliant, despite the fact that you are terrified of failure. You will take any opportunity to prove your own importance, even to the point of self-destruction. Similarly, criticism can be met with extreme contempt. Displays of respect will help to break down this artificial barrier.

You feel unmoored and disconnected from the emotional lives of others and because you aren’t truly sure of the cause, this is probably increasing anxiety. A lack of cooperation from those around you can feel oppressive as it builds upon itself, leading to a separation from the bonds of friendship and romance. You are in danger of becoming alienated and alone.

You often create your own problems through a compulsion for perfection and individuality. A romantic relationship is often met with a critical discernment and a demanding attitude that can tend to create stress and trauma. Consequently, you will often become involved in a relationship that veers constantly from one extreme to another. Social approval is very important to you and yet you pride yourself in your aesthetic judgement. You will always be seeking for ways to prove your superiority or worth.

You feel frustrated in your attempts to make your will manifest in a relationship, either personal or public. This frustration can be seen by others as irritability or anxiety and occasionally a tendency to drift into righteous anger. There is a feeling that society or people are holding you back, which can lead to a moral exhaustion and a sense of apathy if allowed to fester. If this continues you will ultimately desire only to be left alone.

 Insecurity is the watchword for you at this moment. There is a strong sense that you have been socially demeaned or ignored recently. Hopes and dreams have been stymied, leading to an ever greater anxiety or unease. You need reassurance and to believe that your problems will someday be overcome, whether or not this is actually the case. Often your anxieties will lead you to become unreasonable or demanding.

….hmm… pretty much. 

Just had my mother do this and turns out this doesn’t work too well with dyslexics. She saw all the subliminal messages, she just couldn’t read them. lol. 

(Source: whishawesque, via itwaseasy)

1 year ago - 60

G.I. Joe: Rise Of The Cobra

WARNING: SUPER SPOILERS

  Do you like movies with a lot of action? Are you kinda dumb? Well, then G.I. Joe: Rise of the Cobra is just for you. 

I guess I really shouldn’t be suprised by how terrible it is. Usually, if a movie has more then 3 big names in it, more than likely it’s going to be horrible and the more names they push into it, the worst it’ll be. With names like Joesph Gordon-Levitt, Christopher Eccleston, Sienna Miller, Dennis Quaid, Channing Tatum, Marlon Wayans, and Brendan Fraser, this theory is proven once again. 

The best part? Probably all the horribleness in the movie. I mean honestly, the director and screenwriter must have totally thrown logic out the window. 

1) A Redhead named Scarlett? and Dr. Mindbender? (Yeah, yeah, that was their names in the comics, but still…)

2) Uh… Where the hell did that pit come from and how lucky for you that it was directly behind your enemy so you could push him down it.

3) You throw someone on the generator and it not only electrocutes them but the power doesn’t do out? The lights don’t even flicker? That’s some luck. 

4) For a high security bunker in the middle of the desert in Egypt, y’all have some shitty security guards. 

5) How many people do they kill on the streets of France while trying to save the Eiffel Tower from the NanoBots?

6) They clearly state that they have evacuated the Eiffel Tower, so why, when the NanoBots finally hit the Eiffel Tower, are there so many freaking people standing in front and underneath it? 

7) And not to mention, if your Evil Lair is at the bottom of the ocean, shouldn’t you be worrying about The Bends (Decompression Sickness)? I am no expert…. but I hear scuba diving is extremely dangerous because of this it. 

8) I do realize that Heavy was only there to add more “Ethnic Diversity” but really did they have to reduce his character to only being a big black British man who said “Bloody Hell” when things went wrong, and then proceed to point out the obvious with out hardly giving out any sage advice? 

9) Yes, if I have half a brain, I will question why there is a random man walking around with an open flame in the back ground this Evil Underwater Lair.

10) If Washington DC was under attack from metal eating NanoBots, wouldn’t the President be air born on his way to a top secret military base, instead of under the White House in a metal bunker made by the same people you are trying to protect him from?

11) Now, the plot line for this movie was flimsy at best, but what really put the nail in the coffin of this movie for me was how Ana a.k.a. The Baroness sees Duke, our stereotypical dashing hero, being beaten, and suddenly she starts fighting against the NanoBots that have inhabited her body (put there by her brother who just so happened to be the evil Doctor) to help save her one true love. BLAH! I’m a chick and even I think that’s lame. 

  Now, I get that G.I. Joe has a long history going back nearly 50 years, but this movie was an absolute disgrace. Another one of those movies that they might have been able to do something cool with (even though they could do something even cooler, like come up with an original character with an original story) but instead I feel like they half-assed every thing.

The CGI was cringe worthy in a lot of scenes. You can blow up how many cars, but you can’t get better special effects? I felt like the director totally under estimated the intelligence of his audience, and that is saying a lot for me when usually, I see just the opposite. There were a lot of “Oh wow, how dumb is this?” looks passed between my stepbrother and I throughout the movie. 

Now, surprisingly there were some good (and I use that term loosely) points, very few, but they were there. 

1) I am so glad that the side kick gets a hot girlfriend too, although the fact that the hero gets his ex-fiance back at the end kinda killed it for me. But, I suppose it wouldn’t be a Big Hollywood Action Flick if the hero didn’t get the girl. 

2) Christopher Eccleston being evil. I first really noticed Eccleston as the 9th incarnation The Doctor in Doctor Who, and he played the “good-guy” brilliantly. So it was quiet a shock for me when a few months later I watched Elizabeth for the first time and saw him as the villain. I have been hooked ever since. I love watching him be evil. 

3) Oh! And when Scarlett shoots one of the bad guys in the eye at the very beginning and his head explodes. Yeah, that was awesome. 

And…. that’s it. Now, don’t think I hate bad action films, because I don’t. I just hate it when so much potential is wasted. You see Joesph Gordon-Levitt and Christopher Eccleston on the same bill, you will be expecting a pretty good movie, but if you see Steven Seagal or Jean-Clause Van Damme on a bill, you tend to know you are going into a movie that can go either way, but it won’t be because of the acting of the stars. 

Maybe they’ll do better with G.I. Joe 2: Retaliation, it has John McClane himself, a.k.a Bruce Willis in it so we can only hope. 

Thanks for reading my review/rant. 

P.S. Joesph Gordon-Levitt and Christopher Eccleston, if sitting though this crappy movie doesn’t prove my loyalty to you, I have no idea what will. 

workspaceoddity:

Aziz Ansari and his roommate have a competition to see who can compile the worst mixtape possible. Their other roommate judges and the loser must walk around the city blasting the 10 songs from their mixtape on a boombox.

I honestly believe that I made a mix cd in 7th grade that had every single one of these songs on it. LMAO!

(Source: mixtapes)

Interesting News…

Just found out tonight that one of the kids I was friends with in high school does gay porn. How do these things happen?

This kid was a good friend of mine. I ate lunch with him everyday, our mothers were frenemies, we were in the same club, we spent a good deal of our high school career together. In fact, I was one of the first people he told he was gay. Although, I admit I didn’t take it as well as I should of. Not that I have anything against the LGBTQ community, far from it, it was just a shock when he came out and said it, I acted extremely shocked. 

He was, and this is going to sound really harsh but, a really big nerd for most of high school. Mostly, he kinda got trampled on because of his small stature and and extreme awkwardness. If you gave him a chance though and you were somewhat intelligent the kid would have you laughing so hard you’d almost burst. So dry and witty. But he was a geek to the core, religiously devoted to video games and Joss Whedon. He was actually part of the reason I watched “Firefly.”

And he was a hardcore Christian. He went to church with his family every Sunday and even after his crisis of faith once realizing he liked dudes, he still tried to get other people to see that God will love you no matter who you love. 

I assume he is still all these things, but what happened between his senior year of high school and now to make him want to do porn. I can think of hundreds of other kids we went to school with that I would’ve thought would be doing porn before him, but I guess I was wrong. 

And I am not saying doing porn is wrong. To some its probably immensely empowering and to others, the chance to combine money and free sex with hot people has got to be irresistible, There was a time that I actually thought that maybe someday, I wouldn’t mind being in porn, but then the thought of one of my cousins or uncles finding me on their favorite site pretty much stopped that thought as soon as it happened. 

I guess the real question of this blog is this: what makes people do the things they do? What happened to make this kid do this? I would ask him, but I don’t think he wants anyone outside of his target audience to know and we are no longer that close. But its odd to look back at old friends and see what they have being doing with thier lives when I have been doing nothing. 

Literally, nothing. I have a feeling when out 20th high school reunion comes around, I am going to be the most embarrassed. Not the nerd who got in touch with his sexuality and did porn, or the girl who is now in her 4th marriage and pregnant with her 7th kid, no, it’ll be me, the loser who did nil. 

Wow, this turned into a pity party quickly. But I guess the question applies to me as well; “What is stopping me from living my life?”

And Then I Kissed a Star…

I have been a fan of Jason Mraz’s for almost 9 years, since I was 14. 

He was there throughout my horrible 8th grade year, me falling in love(both times), being diagnosed with cardiomyopathy, my first boyfriend (and the subsequent breakup), the rest of high school career, my brother going to Iraq, my parents divorce, and moving nearly 900 miles away from my closest friends and family. 

And even though I don’t keep up with him as religiously as I used to, every time I hear him its like talking to your childhood best friend; familiar, loving, and as if no time has gone by at all. 

It brings back memories of listening to “Sleeping To Dream” on repeat, because I felt he understood how I felt about a boy. 

Or going to my first Mraz concert and showing up super early at the venue and meeting him and Toca for the first time. My parents had never embarrassed me as much as they did in front of him. And how he sang “The Remedy” to me that night after already giving me so much that day. 

Or when Toca saw me in the crowd at my second to last Mraz concert, waved and then pointed me out to Jason, only to have him recognize and wave at me too. 

His music buoyed me in my worst moments and lifted me higher in my best. I sing “Geek In The Pink” or “Make It Mine” as loud as I can when I am happy and I quietly listen to “God Moves Through You” and “Unfold” when I need a good cry. And there are dozens of other songs that triggers so many memories, both happy and sad. 

I’m sorry I just rambled, but I have spent the last 4 hours looking up Mraz on YouTube and listening to some of his old music and some of his newest with a huge smile on my face and a warm fuzzy feeling in my belly and since this is a blog, this is what you get. 

Mainly, this was all just an extravagant lead up to one of my new favorite Mraz songs. Enjoy!

“Frustration and Love can’t exist in the same place at the same time, so get real and start doing what you would rather be doing in life. Love your life. All of it. Even the heavy shit that happened to you when you were 8. All of it was and IS perfect.” - Jason Mraz